Progressing Past Problems

Why her, why me?

Why did this have to be?

What went wrong?

Was it the song?

Was it the right one?

Has she really won?

Is the battle done?

Should I be stunned?

Why'd it happen like this?

Should it be dismissed?

Why her? Why me?

Why did this have to be?

-"Josanna Reese"

Bad news and good news. Before when I mentioned i made it into my classes, I forgot to mention one of the ones I really wanted to get into: Chamber Singer! This is my school's more advanced choral ensemble and I had to audition for it. Today, the choir teacher posted up the list of everyone who made it in and my name was right there on the list! Unfortunately, one of my closer friends didn't and I was sad with her because the class wouldn't be as fun. ='[ This was disappointing and on top of that another girl who didn't even meet the prerequisite of having at least one year in the school choir got in! It was rather unfair and now I am upset, sad, and angry but still happy/relieved. I'm still not totally happy about that list though and I won't be for a while...at least I've got tonight to look forward to...

What a Day.

Can't really think straight.

In a confused state.

Head full of thoughts,

so much and lots.

Just take it all in,

You know you won't win.

Trust filled with doubt,

Need to drown it all out.

Use music and song,

But you can't sing along.

Maybe there's hope,

I'll probably cope.

But still wish to be,

allowed to fly free.

-"Josanna Reese"

On the brighter side...I do feel accomplished now that I have been accepted into all the Honors/AP classes i was hoping to get into. I also feel proud that I organized the plan for the rest of my high school career. I thought I would write more today and for a while I really needed it to just let it go but now that I'm over it (for the most part) I can't remember what I was going to say. But today seemed like lots of things piled on top of each other and it just kept getting bigger with all the stacks of paper and not until now did the A/C turn on and blow a couple of the papers away from the stack. Well that was my day, not exactly what I expected but like Forrest Gump said, "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get."

Concentration with Anticipation

This week so far has been pretty chill with the homework load and all...this is rather surprising because I oddly have been feeling relaxed even though I am busy. Now that I have this to do (although optional) I think it relieves me a bit of whatever's going on. This busy-ness requires much concentration but almost always comes along with distractions. That's why I go to the library to do my homework. Home is reserved for sleeping and doing whatever, but not doing work. So for a while now, I have been anticipating the results of acceptance into Honors and AP classes. After I turned in the applications and did all the required tests, I was relieved and it wasn't until last Friday when I started anxiously waiting for the results. I think that's the worst part...waiting... The thing about this, was on the announcements, they said we would find out by today at break. Unfortunately, they made a mistake and now I have to wait until Thursday to find out. Two more days of anticipation along with continual concentration on my work and some distractions (like this) on the side. Cheers to a crazy rest of the week!

First things first?

So...I just made my first blog...what next? Well, I've always wanted to do this but now that I am doing it, I'm not quiet sure what to say exactly. This is my first post...ever...and I am now rambling about, well, nothing much really. Let's talk about how I feel right now! I am excited that I'm starting something new that haven't done before and this is like taking a small step (that actually seems really big to me.) What would Judy do? Well, for starters, I made my first blog! I still have no idea if I'm doing this right but whatever works right? So, I don't really know how long this thing is supposed to be but hey! This is my blog and I get to say whatever I want...but its kind of hard when you don't have much to say...at the moment...anywho, I think its just about time to wrap things up. I think that whole first blog thing could have been better but it is what it is and it is what I just made it. So cheers to anyone and everyone who reads this!

Yours truly,

Judy